http://faithreflections.wordpress.com/2008/04/06/content-with-god/ Trying to Get To Where I Should Be Mon, 02 Jun 2008 07:13:30 +0000 http://wordpress.com/ hourly 1 http://faithreflections.wordpress.com/2008/04/06/content-with-god/#comment-8 Beth Mon, 02 Jun 2008 07:13:30 +0000 http://faithreflections.wordpress.com/?p=3#comment-8 It's hard to keep faith in God when you're hurting so. It's hard to know how to respond to a God who could give you a baby, yet chooses not to. Trusting God through the toughest days was the greatest struggle of my entire infertility story. I had been a Christian all my life--even a pastor's daughter. Couldn't understand why God would withhold this blessing. As crazy as it sounds, I learned more about God through infertility than any church service, any Bible study, any anything in my entire life. He used it to reveal Himself to me. I realize that God knows what it feels like to want a child to come to Him so badly, but the child won't come. That child was me! Knowing this meant I could pour my heart out to Him and He'd understand. The Bible is full of infertility stories--even in the lineage of Christ. God could have put anything in His Bible that He wanted to, and He chose to include infertility stories. That tells me that our struggles to conceive matter to Him. I didn't realize how much my barrenness matter to Him until I realized how much infertility there is in Scripture. I promise you, God used the infertility to show me how much He loved me. I know it sounds nuts. I know! Don't give up on God in this struggle. He's working. He's moving. Don't give up on God. It’s hard to keep faith in God when you’re hurting so. It’s hard to know how to respond to a God who could give you a baby, yet chooses not to. Trusting God through the toughest days was the greatest struggle of my entire infertility story. I had been a Christian all my life–even a pastor’s daughter. Couldn’t understand why God would withhold this blessing. As crazy as it sounds, I learned more about God through infertility than any church service, any Bible study, any anything in my entire life. He used it to reveal Himself to me. I realize that God knows what it feels like to want a child to come to Him so badly, but the child won’t come. That child was me! Knowing this meant I could pour my heart out to Him and He’d understand. The Bible is full of infertility stories–even in the lineage of Christ. God could have put anything in His Bible that He wanted to, and He chose to include infertility stories. That tells me that our struggles to conceive matter to Him. I didn’t realize how much my barrenness matter to Him until I realized how much infertility there is in Scripture. I promise you, God used the infertility to show me how much He loved me. I know it sounds nuts. I know! Don’t give up on God in this struggle. He’s working. He’s moving. Don’t give up on God.

]]> http://faithreflections.wordpress.com/2008/04/06/content-with-god/#comment-3 kittyquilt Mon, 07 Apr 2008 00:48:33 +0000 http://faithreflections.wordpress.com/?p=3#comment-3 My faith in God has gotten me through many things too. But with infertility it almost seems harder to keep that faith. I think for me part of that is knowing that every conception, pregnancy, and birth really is a miracle. There are so many things that can go wrong; it seems like God's hand has to be involved for it to turn out right. I remember this last Christmas season during a sermon about Mary the thought running through my head was (a slightly bitter) "the only way I could pregnant right now would be through a miracluous conception." I know through all of this I should be drawing closer to God and I'm not. I think it takes a lot of strength to really look at and sort through how infertility fits with a relationship and faith in God. My faith in God has gotten me through many things too. But with infertility it almost seems harder to keep that faith. I think for me part of that is knowing that every conception, pregnancy, and birth really is a miracle. There are so many things that can go wrong; it seems like God’s hand has to be involved for it to turn out right. I remember this last Christmas season during a sermon about Mary the thought running through my head was (a slightly bitter) “the only way I could pregnant right now would be through a miracluous conception.” I know through all of this I should be drawing closer to God and I’m not.
I think it takes a lot of strength to really look at and sort through how infertility fits with a relationship and faith in God.

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